Aussie Angst

Late Night Chat

So I was up til 2:30 this mornin chattin with my Aussie. Talkin and/or chattin time for us gets a li'l squirrely what with the gap in time difference... if we ever talk for long, one or the other of us usually ends up invading our normal sleep time.

I'm still a bit tired... that not-enough-sleep-but-I-have-too-many-things-to-do-so-I-can't-sleep-in tired. And, well, I have a lot to do today, so I can't really explain TOO in depth, but I'd like to give a li'l background.

Long-Distance Friendship

See, I've been to Australia... for the 2000 Sydney Olympic Games. It was an awesome trip, aside from a few minor issues that ended up changing my life for the better even though they sucked at the time. I actually met my Aussie friend, though, AFTER that trip... online, obviously. I have not yet had a chance to meet him in person, though I hope to do so in the next year. I mean, if I'm gonna throw money to the wind, might as well go all out, right?

Amway, though our friendship has been conducted purely online (with a few confusing phone calls thrown in... Aussie's swear they speak English, but I'm still waiting for evidence of that fact) we've managed to develop a rather strange but strong bond. He was engufled in a pretty self-destructive spiral when I first met him. He's come a long way since then... and I'm not sure just how much of my friendship and/or influence can be attributed to his improvement, but I DO know that I earned his trust and his friendship, and that he values my opinion and support. He can be a somewhat difficult personality to deal with at times, and he knows I can handle him and will tell him precisely as I think and feel.

Dealing in Drama

The dood's life is a soap opera... and I think that he thrives on the drama to a certain extent. It certainly gives us plenty to talk about. Our relationship is pretty much about him telling me all about his dramas, and me helping him think his way through them and react to them according to the man he swears he wants to become. Which works out just fine. My own dramas are well behind me... and I rather like the stability in their absence. I don't think we've ever discussed any of my past dramas... they aren't a part of our equation. My role for him is that of strength and support... not as the one that needs to be supported. He gives me an opportunity to indulge my desire to help peeps... though he provides more than that. I genuinely value his intelligence, his heart and his friendship.

Certainly an interesting friendship. I frequently wonder at it sometimes... we are so different in so many ways. His sexual and social background is worlds apart from mine. No pun intended. But then, we have just enough in common... a like understanding of people and of life, a fierce protection of those we care about, plus a background in the military... though his outlook and experience is far more intense than mine.

Being Good... or Not

Amway, many of his current dramas (including last night) involve consolidating his highly sexual nature and historical patterns with the mutually trusting, stable and devoted relationship he wants to have. Of course, I'm not thrilled with the chick he's trying to achieve this with. From my understanding, she's not too trustworthy, stable OR devoted, but it's his decision to make and if it turns out as I think it will, it will simply be another step in his progress. But he's growing and learning all the time... like change doesn't just happen on willpower and a snap of the finger alone... and that, perhaps, alcohol would be best left out of some situations. *grin*

So that's the general gist of how things are right now. He's kind of beatin himself up at the moment, and I'm not sure when I'll see him online again. He's an amazingly strong, intelligent and resilient individual, though, so I'm sure he'll be just fine.

Busy Agenda

In the meantime, I have bills to pay, laundry to finish, new books to catalog, VA meds to renew... and still get to Mom's place to watch movies. I already missed my time to watch one of em... she ordered The Pianist just for me cuz I hadn't seen it yet, and I was supposed to pick it up on my way home from IHOP Buddy's yesterday and watch it last night. Oops. Oh well. We should still be able to get the other two in today before dinner.

A few things have already dropped off of my list of things to do this weekend. Exercise kind of fell by the wayside... but then, I figure I made up for it plenty by all the walking around we did yesterday evening. And I didn't get to all of my errands... including finding some flea treatment. I want to get that soon, though, so I'll probly try to get those after work this week.

Happy International Talk-Like-a-Pirate Day!

Welp, I suppose I'll get goin, but before I do... today's International Talk-Like-a-Pirate Day, so:

Argh!