Evolution

Good to Have Friends

So I woke up this mornin with all sorts of stuff pushin and shovin in my head to get first in line for blog-dom. Then I got side-tracked chattin on IM and yappin on the phone. :) But it's all good. I mean, one could start a lazy Saturday morning in much worse ways than being reminded that one has a lotta good friends.

Oh, and speaking of good friends, I just wanted to quickly comment that I received an old-fashioned thank-you note this week from The Wanderer for putting her up during her trip to Florida. :) Via snail mail and everything! Don't get much of those anymore. But it was rather nice.

Memoir

Amway, during my phone call this morning, we were discussing my blog and how it's kind of turned into somewhat of a memoir for me. I mean, it's not like I really have anything dramatic going on in my life to write about. But I like the direction it's going. As I've mentioned earlier, I've started to develop a gameplan in my head for how I want this to go over the next year. (Unfortunately, I don't think I'm capable of NOT organizing ANYTHING) I want to document a year of my life... and the experiences and people that have helped contribute to who I am today. I only hope I don't burn out on it before I can accomplish my goal.

New Gameplan

But so far, I've been really enthusiastic about writing. And I've already chucked the carefully formulated 5-year plan I had for getting my debts paid off and buying a new car. One of the great (or not... depending on one's point of view) things about my life is that anything can change at the drop of a hat... it's constantly evolving. Well, I suppose more accurately, my mind can change at the drop of a hat. I've gotten used to it, though, and have learned to go with the flow. I mean, ya just gotta live life, right? Evolution is what makes it interesting. :)

So, yeah... my 5-year fiscal plan went out the window, and now I'm halfway decided to throw caution (and money) to the wind and get out and visit as many friends as possible during the next year. And believe me... I have plenty spread out around the world to fit in more than one trip per month. Though, I don't think I can really handle more than one a month. In regards to monetary resources, vacation days and simple energy. Though, with this eminent payraise comin up, my bank account should be able to handle all these trips MUCH better... and not deviate TOO badly from my original fiscal schedule. At least I'm holding on to just enough fiscal responsibility to not make any solid plans until after I find out what my salary's gonna look like in November.

Something to Be Excited About

However it turns out, I think this will be good for me. I've genuinely become excited over the prospect of what I've come to consider my new project. And honestly, I haven't really felt much of anything lately. Sometimes I worry about that... wondering if may be another form of depression. Nothing like the shit I worked through when I was much younger... the typical depression of deep sadness and despair and shit. No, this is just a level, comfortable existence... not really feeling happiness or sadness or enthusiasm or love or hate or fear or nothin. Though, I DO still feel laughter, and that's always a good thing. I think I'd truly be worried if I lost that. :)

But right now, I have something to be enthusiastic about. And I'm looking forward to seeing how it evolves.