Fractures

Fractures

So that's actually the name of a short story I wrote... which has been quagmired amidst the ministrations of the evil red pen for several years now. Pretty cool story... it may actually have a shot at publication if I'd ever sit my ass down to finish the dreaded editing process.

But more to the point, "Fractured" is how I feel at the moment. It's not an unusual occurrence... when I don't feel quite in sync with the rest of the world. I highly suspect hormones... since it frequently takes place during PMS. I imagine it's a fairly universal feeling. It used to freak and/or bum me out. But these days, I just try to recognize it for what it is, take it in stride, let myself feel it, but try to minimize it's effect on my interactions and relationships with peeps. Actually, I usually try to minimize my interaction with peeps, period, while I'm feeling like this. I tend to either take things outta proportion, rub off on peeps, or let them rub off on me. Like my empathy goin into overdrive... only crookedly. Yeah, I'm sure I made that really clear.


O Migraine, O Antagonist

Pain and drugs don't help, either... something else I'm partially attributing to PMS. And the extremely low temperatures and pressures outside. I've been havin migraines out the ying yang lately. *sigh* Perhaps that may be one more benny to moving to San Diego: consistent environment. If the pollution doesn't set my head off. *sigh again*

I thought I'd had my weekend migraine beat yesterday, only a pleasant trip to the optometrist and his bright shiny light brought everything crashing back. I'm okay at the moment, though. Got that "fractured" thing goin on, and gettin the meds outta my system, so I've been a bit off all day... but no pain, so that's a definate plus.

I was just chatting with Fussbudget and tellin her about how I'm feelin a bit "off" today. And she asks me "don't you always feel THAT way?" *snicker* I told her sometimes more than others. :) Sometimes she really seems to be in sync with me... even when I'm OUT of sync... if that make sense. Just this mornin she mentioned knowing that I'd had a migraine... though I hadn't talked to her in several days. Of course, I've developed some recognizable patterns... I tend to drop off the message board, or the internet altogether, when I'm not feeling well. But that also happens when I get really busy. Mebbe we were separated at birth... mebbe I'm predictable. Or mebbe a bit of both. ;)

Crazy Town

Had a lotta excitement in Columbia last week... cop was shot just a few blocks from my apartment and the suspect left his car in the parking lot of the building next to mine, so I woke to the police insistently banging on my door at 3 am. I think that was Wednesday or Thursday or some such. The drama continued to unfold when the police closed in on the dood later the next day... he shot another cop in the arm, then blew his own brains away.

Good grief... I mean, this is Columbia, people. Sheesh.

I think the first cop is still in ICU, but is no longer in a coma. The town has really pulled together for her... she's only 23 years old. And in more bizarre news, the Sheriff of our neighboring county blew out his OWN brains that same day. I think somebody blew some crazy dust across Misery this last month.

When I posted the incident it to the message board I belong to, I had a few peeps caution me to be careful. I guess part of me SHOULD be a bit concerned... but I suppose part of living up on a big city has always stayed with me. Even if it this sort of thing can shock me again... it really doesn't scare me. If I'd grown up scared after every gruesome news story, I pretty much would have been immobilized my entire childhood. Not that I'm not careful, mind you. "Stupid" and "Not scared" are two different animals.

Personal Gains (or losses, depending on how ya look at it)

Not much else goin on 'round here. Stayin VERY busy at work... I knew the move out into the front area would be a good thing. In fact, work is backin up a bit, and I may decide to put in some quality O/T (for which I won't be paid) to catch up. But I'm not quite there yet. I mean, my brain has already punched it's timeclock for today, so I decided to post a li'l here before I head home. So I'm not quite desparate enough for overtime yet. 'Sides... I know this place... it always moves in cycles. It'll slow down again soon.

I've finally cut myself off from e-Bay. I still have a few open auctions... for which I'll accept victory or defeat with equal relief... I'm leavin em up to fate. And I moved on from video games to jewelry. Yeah, I'm not that big on jewelry, but it always starts out as "Ya know... I've been meaning to look for some more silver pendants" and now I'm gonna have to reorganize an entire drawer of my li'l jewerly armoir to accomodate all the new pendants. I swear... e-Bay is just as dangerous as Wal-Mart... ya find fifty million li'l bargains... which add up.

Welp... that's about it. I have just enough time to get tomorrow's calendars printed up before packin up and headin home. I can't think of any other exciting news... and if I do, I'll be sure to post it.

Until then... laters!