Post Script

As an addendum to "Fractures", I'd like to point out that it's time like these when I'm VERY glad I live with none but a li'l furry companion. I have lived my life alone so far... pretty much due to choice. Not necessarily always conscious choices, but definately my own.

I'm not sure if I WANT my current living arrangement to ever change... knowing life, of course, it is most assured TO change, whether I want it to or not. But for the most part, I'm pretty happy with it as it is now. Sometimes, I feel a twinge of a need to find companionship. But then, when I shake myself awake, I realize that I'd have no idea what to do with it if I ever found it. And sometimes I feel my biological clock tickin away so very lightly... but then I'm thankful for the freedom I enjoy for being child-free. Especially financial freedom.

So I figure I'd best leave "companionship" up to the vagaries of life... and deal with figuring it out when it bops me across the head. For now, I'm quite content for my home to be my haven from outside contact. To be in my own head and my own space, after HAVING to deal with people all day at work. On days like these, when I'm feeling out of sync, it's good to know I can go home and NOT deal with anybody. I can let the answering machine answer the phone, and I can simply not answer the knock on the door. Rood, yes, I know... but I can almost gaurantee it's less offensive than a potential conversation.

When I went back home for a few years, my folks helpin me out when I found myself in a financial bind I couldn't get myself out of alone... some days were definately a strain. When I needed to be alone, but turned around and there they were, all of us feeding off of each other (Take a wild guess where I inherited my empathy from). And I tried roommates TWICE in my life... once when I first left home, and once in the barracks at my duty station in the Navy. Neither situation lasted long.

Yeah, my anti-social tendencies will pose a small problem if I suddenly run into the love of my life... but then I suppose I'll just have to learn how to adapt. :)

For now, I'm simply very glad I can go home and shut out the world that is so roodly out of sync with me today.