Snappy Day

So mebbe I'm just having a PMS week... the joys of which are immeasurable.

I had to apologize to the Receptionist this morning for snapping at her irritably over a stupid phone call transfer. As soon as I was done with the call, I immediately went to apologize... she got her indignation and hurt off her chest, and we went on to talk about stress in general and how we've encountered it in past jobs. I'm confident all is good between us, but I'm sure that this will be yet another issue, on top of my previous miscommunication with a PM a few weeks ago, for behind-closed-door discussion. *sigh*

Besides, I'm still out of sorts over the incident. Kinda like emotional backlash or echoes that don't quite die out... at least for the rest of the day. I really do hate it when I snap at somebody, then immediately realize they didn't deserve it... cuz then I'm irritated even more, only at myself. So I'm doubly zapped, with no outlet cuz my conscience has kicked in.

It's by far not the first time it's happened. I've certainly done my fair share of apologizing in my life. I can't quite explain it... sometimes I have an amazingly even disposition, and can let all kinds of things just roll off my back that would have other folks twisted into knots. And sometimes not. Of course, hormones are frequently a culprit, but I can't always blame them. Empathy is also a culprit, but I can't always track down an irrational emotion down to anybody else. Then there's the typical male solution: essentially that I need to get laid. Whatever the combination of factors, the fact remains that I can lose my temper out of nowhere... but just as quickly get over it. Unfortunately, that doesn't quite happen fast enough to keep my mouth shut. *forehead smack*

Now, I realize this is not a unique human condition. I just wish the human condition made a bit more sense sometimes.

I know, I know... HA!