Positive Thought for the Day

Okay, so I've decided I'm getting too negative lately, and need to start focusing on the positive. I'm not oblivious to the fact that my inner "victim" has never really been entirely vanquished... and it will grasp any opportunity I let slip, to re-assert itself. Which is why I usually endeavor to keep perspective and temper negative with positive as much as possible. Seems I've lost sight of that lately. So...

Positive Thought #1

My loss of appetite lately (stemming from constant pain and/or nausea) has resulted in my landing at the bottom of my typical 10-pound flux. Now, I know this is not a HEALTHY way to lose weight, but... mebbe it can help me outta the habit of bad-for-me munchies, which I may be able to maintain once I'm done with the current battle with my head. Hell... with such encouraging results, I may even be inspired to start up my exercise regime again, and I can get rid of the rest of the 20 pounds keeping me from my ideal weight.

This would be helpful for my trip to Santa Maria in October. I'm tellin ya, there's nothing quite like strippin down for my tat artist to survey what work needs to be done, and being at least 40 pounds heavier than when she first started that work (even though I was a bean pole at the time). Almost makes me feel like I've betrayed her for letting her palette and all her hard work go to pot (or at least stretched out a tad). The only good thing about it is: with the extra padding, the new tat work doesn't hurt HALF as much as it used to... lol

Positive Thought #2

I did a pretty good job of earning my keep right at the end of my work day yesterday... even through the blinding pain of a full blown migraine. At the last minute, The Boss needed some dollar figures researched, calculated and compiled in presentable form... and he needed it for first thing in the morning. The other girls were on their way out for the day, so it was up to me. I wasn't thrilled, but the task wasn't really that difficult. I knew how and where to find the information he needed, it didn't take me long to type up the page or so of lists, and I can throw together a spreadsheet (including formatting and calculations) in my sleep. Complete with revisions from the boss, I managed to accomplish all within about a half hour. *patting self on back* Then I got to go home and O.D.

Of course, if I'd been unfamiliar with any part of the process, it would have been a much different matter, since I was having a difficult time thinking clearly. But I guess it's a good sign that I understand the ins and outs of the department fairly well... and gives me small piece of mind that I actually still can be useful when needed, despite any given state of pain. I have hope that my migraines (and thus, myself) may not become a liability to the department anytime TOO soon.