Gone

So they say be careful what you ask for. I kept hoping Ms. Pukesalot could give her own two-cents worth about her fate, instead of my trying to interpret her behavior. And last weekend, she finally gave me her input... at great extent. She cried and cried all weekend. It was a hard weekend.

I thought the decision would be easier once I knew for sure which was the right choice. It wasn't. You know, there really isn't any delicate way to say "I killed my cat" without sounding trite. But there it is. The vet was able to get us in early Monday morning, so Pop was able to be with us... and Mom, not currently working, was there of course.

The rest of the day was not my best. Migraines are NOT a huge fan of all that crying. At least that phase didn't long... I thought I was doing okay until these last couple of days, when I crossed over into "cranky" land. With provocation, of course. Sometimes my boss can be a real pain in the ass, and he chose one helluva time to indulge in it. At least he's an equal opportunity ass, so I know I'm not special or anything... but still.

But at least it is now 5:30 on Friday, and it's time to go home. Tomorrow I have to take Gram to her hair appt... plus I have to start contemplating cleaning the house in preparation for Coffeehead's visit in a few weeks (and deciding whether or not I'm ready to clear out all the feline accoutraments)... but at least I'll finally have some healing "alone" time sometime this weekend.

At least I hope so... I'm in sore need of it. Poor Mom has really wanted to be there for me and help me through my loss and all... but for her, the healing process involves lots of hugs, and reaching out, and time spent with loved ones. For me, it means time to myself to find my center and recuperate. We compromised, though... Tuesday, after I was released after not being selected for jury duty around noon, she and I went out to lunch and saw a movie... then she and Pop wanted to take me to dinner. It was very nice of them, and I appreciated it. But between that, then working late Wednesday and Thursday to catch up with my missed time, I haven't had much of that "me" time. I sincerely plan to catch up this weekend. Hopefully.