1 Week

So I figured I’d take a break from trying to figure out what the hell’s wrong with me to talk about... oh, anything else.

So as the title of this post implies, we’ve got a countdown going. In fact, this entire year will consist of countdowns. But this particular one is marching towards the next time Sweetie and I see each other again.

Next Thursday, I will hop on the plane in St. Louis about 7 pm, and will land in London about 10 am on Friday. Then we have 3 ½ days of meeting just about everybody he knows, in conjunction with laying down wedding plan foundations for THAT side of the Atlantic, and then I will come home.

We don’t have quite the equivalent amount of time to visit with each other for my trips over there as we have for his trips over here. Mostly cuz he has about 4 times the amount of time off that I do. I keep marveling at the fact that he’s willing to give up those sorts of benefits to move here...

Amway, we can look forward to a nice long visit when he’s back in May (if he’s allowed to while the Fiancé Visa Application is in process). Until then, we have 3 ½ days.

My biggest fear for this visit is that my perpetual state of agitation is not going to ease up so that I can actually stop blowing up at everything in general... let alone Sweetie. However, I have hope for a few positive things going for me:

1) PMS officially ended today... so my wonderful hormones shouldn’t be screwing with me next week.

2) Part of my stress is definitely due to our separation in time and space. And even in a world of constant agitation, he is my comfort. So I can hope that being with him will actually help.

3) I have a little time to find my center and kinda hit that reset button...

4) I also have the same amount of time to practice tempering my irritable reactions with newly understood information before unleashing them.

Wish me luck...

We’ll see how it goes. All I can do is proceed with every conscious effort to enjoy our time together and not to stress over anything. We have a very carefully laid out schedule that isn’t really "law", but will help organize everything we have to get done without pushing ourselves on any given day... until a better idea presents itself.

Though this will be a bit of a whirlwind trip, the upshot is: we get to see each other again. And afterwards, hopefully, the basic foundations will be set or arranged for both ceremonies, and I can relax with a little less hanging over my head.

So I can then tackle the other 15 things hanging over my head... lol